I needed to say that...

Last night I got drunk and made a couple of videos that I needed to.

For decades I have been holding in a lot of pain and sadness, due to being raped for years as a child.

I went through so many emotions, from hate to pity. I still hate him, but I am moving past that. But I had to say something.

Joseph Page. You actually destroyed my sense of trust, and for a long time I didn't think I would recover.

You was my friend. And you took advantage of that.

I am clearly not over it, and never will be. But I can stop hating myself. I hated that I was so weak and scared of you.

No more.